Wedding planning is exhausting stuff!!
The venue, caterer, dj, photographer, tables and chairs, wedding night suite, dress and invitations are done....now I have to do the flowers, decor, rsvp list, transportation, registry and wedding party details.
whew!
our venue is GORGEOUS. we picked it because it both spoke to us, we both agreed that we pictured ourselves getting married there. Only one drawback, while we want to have every single person we love to be there to witness our special day, we can only have 80 people!! That is my biggest stress right now...the guest list. i am cutting people off the list i have known for 10+ years just so I can accomodate the wedding party and their families, and MY family (just immediate!) and HIS family (just local)! and we are still OVER 100 people. ouch :(
on a better note....chris and i found AWESOME deals to hawaii online.
i am SO tempted.
we really want a honeymoon. I think I am ready to be away from ava for a few days. I will be sooo sad at first but I think the break will be nice...i can't wait to marry chris, and walk down the aisle and say our vows. we made a vow to eachother over a year ago, right before ava was born, and that commitment alone was SO huge and important in our relationship...and it wasnt even "legal"..it was personal, and special, and beautiful and that is exactly what i want our wedding to be.
I want our family to see our love. i want our friends to witness our commitment to eachother and to our families. to take vows and make promises and exchange rings.
I know chris is anxious about his vows, words dont come easy to him, but i know even the most simple vow from him will bring tears to my eyes. he does have a way with words even if he doesnt know it ;)
i got a text from him today randomly...he wrote : "you have a face i never want to stop looking at."
To some people thats cute or whatever, but to me thats Chris..thats the BEST thing to hear from someone that has seen you at your worst and ugliest and fattest pregnant gross, and has also seen you at your best. Its the little things he says that means the world to me.
I am still trying to figure out how to include Ava in our ceremony. She takes 10 steps at a time now...but i dont think she would be able to walk to full aisle in a dress and clunky shoes. (*i wonder if i have to buy an aisle..?) We are including her in our vows for sure, and we have a cute 5 yr old flower girl already, so maybe we will just have to have her wheeled in on a wagon or something. i dont want anyone carrying her.
Something to think about while I am trying to go to sleep at night!
